Well, I have to say, this is just about my favourite time of year. The eve before the kids finally return to school. It's been a VERY long two weeks. Having Joel off for three weeks + the kids off for two + me waiting for 2 clients to deliver= STRESS. My kids have been so thrown off their schedules that we have all been incredibly stressed out over the Christmas holidays. Then with Christmas falling a mere 2 days after the kids getting out, it led to a very long break from school after Christmas. It's been close to miserable. Hard to believe when I see my little 'angels' asleep in their beds, but I've been just about ready to ship them off to live elsewhere these past few weeks.
Last Thursday, the night before Joel was heading back to work he said "I get to go to work tomorrow..YES!!". I was like: "don't rub it in!!". We are all dying to get back to some semblance of normalcy and schedule. Obi is bored out of his mind and craves the social interactions (away from his sisters) that school supplies. He has been SO tough to handle. I've lost my temper and yelled at the kids more often than I care to admit. It's so humbling and embarrasing when your kids throw tantrums and act exactly the way you do :( Shameful! I've just come to my breaking point. I always make a point of apologizing to my kids after I've yelled at them. They always call me on stuff, and Izzy says "I feel like you don't love me when you yell at me". Punch in the gut...I feel so awful. Why is parenting so difficult? Maybe I was wrong to think I could ever do this job. I'm praying that having the kids back in school will help to calm things down around here so we can all get back to normal.
Summer holidays are never as tough for us as this break in the winter. I guess this year's been worse since we don't have any snow to play in. Although we have been able to ride our bikes, or go for walks and not freeze. Summer is so much easier to deal with the kids being off though. Probably because we camp as much as we possibly can. I don't know, all I know is that the last few weeks have been very hard.
Lord, forgive my failures as a mom. Help me to do a better job at raising these kids you've blessed me with!
Mel
1 comment:
Mel - You are an absolutely awesome mom!! I look up to you so much. But I think everyone needs a break from their kids from time to time - remember that you have a whole other identity that can easily get overshadowed by parenting.
I'm glad to hear your client had a nice healthy birth. Now I can stop worrying that you won't be able to make it to mine!!
Kim
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