Beatiful Moments

This morning I was bathing Lyric and washing her hair. As I tipped her head back and rinsed her hair I was singing the song "You are so beautiful to Me". She got this great big smile on her face and I couldn't resist kissing her as I did it. So I shampoo her hair and go to rinse it again and she was getting all frustrated with me, and I couldn't figure out why. Finally she says "You sing...beau'iful me??" in her sweet little baby voice. My heart smiled. I just love listening to her talk right now. All her "I wuf you, beau'iful day Mommy, you...me? you....me? (which she says anytime she wants me to do something with her...play a game or whatever). She is at such a sweet stage right now.

I must admit it saddens me to think of her outgrowing this adorable (yet sometimes challenging stage). My baby isn't a baby anymore. I've never looked back and regretted our decision to not have any more kids, but watching them grow so quickly is difficult. Sometimes you have those moments where you'd just like to freeze time. I can feel the lump in my throat and my eyes are welling with tears as I write this.

I also feel saddened for Isabelle sometimes. She was only 8 months old when I found out I was pregnant again. Sometimes I think she was robbed a little of being "the baby". You know how with your first baby you worry about everything and try to do everything 'by the book' and you don't really take the time to just 'be' with them and appreciate the moments? I feel like I took more time for that with Obi and even more with Lyric. Now she's so independent and good that we rarely have to deal with any issues with her. This means that Obi and Lyric get most of the attention. I've really been making an effort to hug her more, kiss her more, and tell her that I love her. Sometimes when they get older we forget to do that and we expect too much from them sometimes (or at least I do). I want to be a good mom to all my kids. I want each of them to feel just as loved as the other two, that is so important to me. I hope she never feels like she's the forgotten child.

Melanie